I can still remember being 10 years old and watching Road Rules in my parents room, my hand gripping the remote, ready to change the channel incase my brother walked in, because my brother found reality television disgusting, something not to be watched and to be quite honest I love reality television.
Even now, in my quest to become a lady, reality television is one of those things that I really can't give up (along with poop jokes).
I think the reason that I am so infatuated with reality television is because I feel as though it is a spectrum, a gauge, of human emotion. I imagine that if I had a camera following me around all the time I would lose alot of my inhibitions, say alot more, and I would probably be manipulated to say alot more too. I would probably say alot of things that I would regret and normally wouldn't agree, but I spend alot of time repressing and I think that side of humans is SO INTRESTING. Things that we would normally keep to ourselves, things that we think and know we shouldn't, those are the most interesting things.
The editing powers that comes with every reality show is also very fascinating and powerful to me. Obviously watching me make myself cereal every morning isn't great, and reality sows are such hilights of each persons life. Every show is a statement of either extreme human disgust/sadness or human insight and joy.
I enjoy that. I enjoy that everything has meaning and themes and nothing just exists, because its not even possible for something meaningless to exist. Which, provides me with a sense of optimism. Everything I do has a meaningful effect. Everything I do means something.
I also like one other thing about reality television which is that it provides me with endless examples of the eternal struggle of man kind. Or two struggles. One being the constant need for conflict within human life and the second being the fact that we are animals.
All the time in reality shows they focus on a conflict and show interviews with the two main people in the conflict and then we understand that the conflict could've been avoided with communication, and thats always case and its heavily ironic and it makes me wonder about how many ironic moments like that exist inside my own life and I am kind of glad to know those moments occur everytime there is a conflict. They also show how conflict is created, and how for most people, conflict is required. How people create their own problems (like how women are raised to be ladies, and their husbands often view them as asexual virgin mary look alikes, and how that leads to the creation of mistresses and sexual tentsion and adultry)
And. We are animals, and I forget that alot. Occasionally I think about microserfs, the part where it says
Q. If you could be any animal what animal would you be?
A. You already are an animal
That always sticks with me. I am an animal, so are you. When I think about fasting, I feel like the antianimal.
When I see 26 girls dressed in little to no clothes fighting over one boy I remember that we are animals. Reality shows show that to me.
